urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy ~*Brie*~ ~*Brie*~ 2007-02-23T06:20:17Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:26490 2007-02-23T06:20:17Z 2007-02-23T06:20:17Z you spin me right round I went to the one and only metal show in Asheville on Tuesday. It was Mastodon and it was a good show besides the fact that james and I got into a huge fight right after the show. It was not pretty! then again what fight is? Besides from a movie I can't think of one. We're ok now. One thing that he thinks is that I am very unhappy here, which is true but I know that I will not not be happy in Charlotte either. I feel like this is just a point in my life where I'm in limbo,like I'm running in mud. My education is moving at a snails pace and I work all the time just too barley make it and as I'm working so hard and pushing myself I have a roommate that has just given up and is leaning on her mother and me and that is not my worries! She decided to move out and is leaving at the end of march but the house has been really tense. I just want to find a drug free open minded person and its a stretch but maybe just maybe an artist. But I know its not a dream world thats ok who knows what will happen. I start my training to become a sales person in two weeks or so. *Sighs* I miss mommy. She'd have some wisdom. Maybe something will come to me until then I am just gonna deal with the bullshit and move on anyway till its gone!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:23246 2006-07-30T05:18:55Z 2006-07-30T05:18:55Z none <em>*sighs*</em> moving worries are finally starting to kick in. I know this is what I have to do,its just harder than it looks or sounds! I guess who ever came up with the idea that moving was "stressful" was diffently correct in saying so. I leave in two days and the thought of being there all alone for three weeks without anyone I know is scary. I don't know if I can handle this and to top it all off I still have to find a job and me and james are fighting alot as of today. Maybe today is just not my day. <br /><br />I'm guessing tomorrow won't be either because I have to see my dad and tell him I won't give him my address until he goes to rehab.Then hang out with the rest of the familyl. Which I don't really mind except if my grand-pa is in his you can't do anything your just a stupid women and we all know women can't do anything but cook and clean moods.But hopefully that won't be the case. It would be nice to say goodbye and it be fight free! <br />Well one thing I can count on is that at some point<em> <font color="#0000ff">I will feel alone</font></em><font color="#0000ff"> and<strike> I can't make it go away.<br /></strike></font>But thats the way things go the only option I have is to keep moving on despite how I feel.<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:22993 2006-07-28T00:56:57Z 2006-07-28T00:56:57Z 4 Days left until I move. Things are starting to get really crazy around here. Go figure! Everything always happens when your ready to leave.X_x Today I went to target to get some things for my appartment.(I have nothing because I've never lived on my own before.) The things I bought are so cute!! even my broom and toliet brush.Ha ha ha.Sorry I'm craking up over here.<br />The other day me and creep hung out and had lunch. It was so fun. I am going to miss him and bullet so much,but I know we will keep in touch. At least I hope we will.<br />In other news my dad has started a huge shit storm over the fact I am not going to give him my new address. He saying that I'm just leaving him and basically going feel sorry for me because I make all kinds of mistakes,blame other people and talk about how much I do for them. Or something like that.But my whole deal is that I will tell him where I live once he comepletes at least a 30 day rehab program and then goes to out patient grief counseling.Thats all I'm asking. One of my main reason's for doing so is that if he knew now all he would try and do is wreck what I have going and if he came to my house and made a scene I would for sure get kicked out. Then I'd have nowhere to go and he'd be happy cause he was at least doing better than me and yes I know that does not make much sense but I could see it happing. Now he is trying to make me feel bad and make this all about him and its not. But I can't just leave him behind and never talk to him again cause no matter how bad he messes up he'll always be my dad. But right now I just have to love him from a distance.Which really sucks! Maybe after I talk to him he will clam down and stop being so mean. Who knows anymore, anything could happen. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:20342 2004-12-21T23:35:23Z 2004-12-21T23:35:23Z Something by Theatre of Tragedy <p>my feet are cold </p> <p><font color="#6600cc" size="2">can you guess what is on my mind.......</font></p> <p><font color="#6600cc" size="2"></font>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:19476 2004-12-10T02:10:02Z 2004-12-10T02:10:02Z <p>I can not belive this....</p> <p>Dime bag from pantera/damage plan was fucking shot late last night at his show.</p> <p>My long time friend is now a daddy</p> <p>the familys dog was hit by a car that did not even stop to see if he was ok.</p> <p>My old boss had 2 heart attacks.</p> <p>Now kilfie and I are just waiting to see what else will happen next.</p> <p>this is a horrible day for us all!!!!!!!!!!!!!! </p> <p><br>&nbsp;</p> <p><strong><font size="7">RIP DIMEBAG DARRELL</font></strong></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:17325 2004-10-28T02:42:23Z 2004-10-28T02:42:23Z Apple of Sodom By Marilyn Manson So i made 100% on both algebra tests i had today.But algebra is still my lowest grade coming in at a 84.9 which is one point or whatever away from a B- damn it everything else I have A's in.But not algebra damn it to hell!! I will by the end of next month at the latest.IT WILL BE DONE.Other than that school is going really good.<br /><br />I went to the youth thing at the Ymca and those people are close minded as hell.It really was really stupid how they were acting and saying being gay is wrong.When its not and i won't be some where they don't except that people are that way and its not a bad thing.They could only say it was a sin and sins are bad...Which is like umm everybody sins(if you think that way) not just gay people.Stupid Fucks.I Won't deal with that bullshit.Thats how people get killed in the end and thats how this world get way more stupid is people thinking thats a good reason to hate people or something.Where the hell do they get off?Oh well the only reason i am in that is i need some kind of elective.Plus we get to work with clay.But one more mention of the subject in a negative light and i will tell them where to put the youth club!!!I will find somewhere else to make art and stuff.<br /> <br /> Life is so damn crazy you never do know what is to come. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:16841 2004-10-17T21:16:58Z 2004-10-17T21:16:58Z Cup of Coffee By Garbage I went to a party last night.It was cool i saw a lot of people that i had not seen in like a year or so.I ended up getting there late after i got off work and all most everyone was drunk.I was like ok and just sat down and watched everyone be stupid and drew a little.I stayed up all night.well all i am going to say that it was fun and took me back to when i was like 13 or 14 and ahh the memories.I have to call some people today and finnish my school work for last week so my teacher will not kill me.Things are so crazy.I mean really it was good that i saw my friends last night.But there was one friend that was not there and it made me very upset and sad.I just hope that I see him again soon!!!I wish he would come back today but i know he won't.Oh well I have to get my mind off that and think happy or somthing......*RUNs off to try and go be happy* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:14557 2004-07-01T07:40:14Z 2004-07-01T07:40:14Z #1 Crush By garbage God my birthday is ALMOST here!The year went by so fast...I am glad that 16 is almost over.It was not as good as i had been told it would be...or how I thought it would be.But thats ok there is always 17 things are looking up.Maggot will be back around.I decided not to have a big party like last year I know I would just get left out anyway.Last year i ended up in my room all alone while all of my "friends" were all over my brother and his friends.I mean i tried to hang out with them but I was just a joke to them all.Hey lets put her in a headlock Cause it is so funny to see me gasp for air and fall down on my face.....Fuck that.I am just going out with my parents and glass bullet to a nice restaurant then to the movies, and then home to play ps2 games,listen to our music as loud as we want then watch some more movies and maybe do art.Well at least thats the game plan.My mom wants to have party.But I KNOW it will just end up out of hand with me getting hurt and thats noway to spend a birthday I will try at all cost to avoid something like that again.more than likely my mom will plan to have a party and i'll have to deal with it...but not the day of my birthday she was talking about the day before so whatever i'll just hide out again....they never notice anyway.I wish maggot could be with me and glass_Bullet but the 26 is getting close so that makes it not as bad.WOOHOO *happy dance*It'll be fun to see what happens its like a soap opera or something tune in to find out ha ha ha oddness urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:14119 2004-06-29T07:59:20Z 2004-06-29T07:59:20Z The man who sold the world By David Bowie <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/I/Iceangel143/1078089874_ctureslost.JPG" border="0" alt="HASH(0x8907984)"><br>You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what<br>that can always mean, because it can be defined<br>in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were<br>the spirits of passed away people who are<br>neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the<br>earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing<br>when you expect it least. So hence, if you have<br>a Lost Soul, then you are probably very<br>insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,<br>you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont<br>know your place. You seemingly dont have a<br>place in society or an interest. You are a very<br>capricious person, and are confused and<br>frustrated about where you belong. You crave<br>for the sense and feeling of home-but have not<br>obtained it yet.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Iceangel143/quizzes/What%20Kind%20of%20SOUL%20do%20you%20posses%3F%20(For%20Girls%20only)%20Incredible%20Anime%20Pictures!/"> <font size="-1">What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:13471 2004-06-13T06:04:19Z 2004-06-13T06:04:19Z Only happy when it rains By Garbage <table width="250" align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0"><tr><td bgcolor="black" align="center"><font style="color:white; font-size: 16pt;">Eyes_Of_Fantasy's LJ stalker is x_raggedyanne_x!</font></td></tr><tr><td align="center" bgcolor="white"><font style="color:black; font-size: 12pt;">x_raggedyanne_x is stalking you because you are really good at bowling. They are also in jail for murder!</td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/stalker/stalker.php">LiveJournal Username:<input name="uname"><br><input type="submit" value="Who is your LJ Stalker Friend?"><br><br /></form><a href="http://www.go-quiz.com/stalker/stalker.php">LJ Stalker Finder</a><br>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></font></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:13209 2004-06-05T06:09:52Z 2004-06-05T06:09:52Z Androgyny By Garbage Today was an awesome day.Hung out with Glass_Bullet for a long time we catched up.Changed our hair colors,Ate sloppy joes (that sounds a bit odd)Listened to music that was so bad it was some how good.Made a attmept to avoid my parents at all cost.I tried to do a back bend and the second time was the charm.The first was a Disaster fell right on my head.But it was all Glass_Bullets fault for making me laugh.I can't wait to hang out with her again.It was so great but not perfect (thats ok i would never want it to be Perfect because then we would have nothing to look forward to now would we?)Made me miss my Maggot =/ Thats ok I'll see them in like two weeks give or take a few days.I can't wait Glass_Bullet,Maggot,and me on a road trip.LIfe is so funny............<br /><br /><br /><br />I leave you all with socks in your mouth.So ha ha ha X_x and yeah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:11458 2004-04-18T07:18:28Z 2004-04-18T07:18:28Z Not my idea By Garbage I have a really odd week.My brother moved out of my parents house.I went to see where he lives now and let me just say he was better off at my parents house.that place was a mess and the people were just drama fiends.but whatever floats your but i guess.Now i know there is drama in my life but I don't go and look for it or thrive on it.One things for sure I will never spend the night there again No way! the whole time i was there I did not sleep at all I just sat in the dark hall on the stairs with a couple lit candles and my art book to draw in and a book to read also a cd player(I had to have some music)I was up for two days.I came home took a shower,then I went to bed.There was 9 or 10 people who live there.thats a lot of people and two of the girls that live there are going to have babies.So yeah my brother can come see me damn it.I don't care if he hates my grand parents.but anyway tonight was good I hung out with my friends for a while then came home and my dad came over and we watched a movie and talked.No fighting go us!!!So much has been going on I am all like X_x or something....I miss my maggot and glass bullet.I have so much make up school work to do tomorrow its the last day of spring break too.:/ <br />thats ok schools fun when you home school.Public schools suck!!!!<br /><br /><br />Anyway on another note its really funny how things turn out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:10328 2004-03-30T09:11:32Z 2004-03-30T09:11:32Z Ava Adore by Smashing Pumkins I had something really important to say or type and it all just got deleted.Damn .................. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:8408 2004-01-17T08:19:20Z 2004-01-17T08:21:00Z Her ghost in the fog By Cradle Of Filth I am making my journal Friends only.Comment if you would like to be added.If you are not allready added. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:7853 2004-01-14T07:29:45Z 2004-01-14T07:29:45Z Five to One By the Doors Man I want to get the hell out of this city and start over somewhere else.Maybe it would just be the same somewhere else but nobody would know me and things would just be better or maybe I am just losing it I don't care I just want to leave I spent to many years here and there are only a hand full of good things to come from me being here so....If I went somewhere else maybe things would get better and no I am not trying to run away from my past I just want something better I don't really know what that would be but its something different from now.Maybe maybe maybe *sighs* Well I will not know till I try right.So for now I'll just save up and make the best out of the worst and try not to notice whats wrong but notice whats right as few and far between whats right might be.<br /> Its so funny how .............................. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:7509 2004-01-09T07:38:31Z 2004-01-09T07:38:31Z Count to 6 and die By Marilyn Manson I can't seem to find out what the hell is going on.Everything is spinning out of control.Things are getting worse and it seems as though there will be no happy thoughts left when I am done riping them to pieces but don't think i am the only one riping things up by no way is it just me.People are riping me up but oh well not much left to rip I really wish I had something happy to say but.......<br /><br />Today was not a good day for me and lets just leave it at that urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:7188 2003-12-21T03:57:00Z 2003-12-21T03:57:00Z Doll Parts by hole X_x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:6988 2003-12-16T11:19:01Z 2003-12-16T11:19:01Z the speed of pain by marilyn manson This was writen by me and I want to share so here:<br />You were everything I wanted but now I know what we all have become.What you and I have lost.Nobody will see this the way my eye perceives this but i am not doing this for them .thought fueled by hate,love sorrow,something we've all lost.Not to be again and we all fall victim of are own sevles once more and yet again till the very end.<br /> by<br /> ~*Brie*~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:6767 2003-12-15T09:25:33Z 2003-12-15T09:25:33Z marilyn manson <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/X/xSkeTchY69x/1054060556_nifilthmmm.jpg" border="0" alt="file:///C:/My%20Documents/danifilth%20mmm.jpg"><br>You are Cradle of Filth's DANI FILTH! You're a<br>fucking badass, you write some kick-ass lyrics<br>and are a great fuckin' singer. You probably<br>scare people, but that's always fun. Yum =)<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/xSkeTchY69x/quizzes/What%20Singer%20Are%20You%3F%20/"> <font size="-1">What Singer Are You? </font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br />Me scare people no never. X_x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:6430 2003-11-20T06:13:16Z 2003-11-20T06:13:16Z Mister Superstar By Marilyn Manson i am LUCIFER hehehe.right?<br /><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/1033209200_lucepic.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br>Lucifer. The most misunderstood of all the<br>ArchAngels, you're most like the ArchAngel of<br>Light. You've seen the darkside and have opted<br>for something better. You need better press,<br>though chances are no one will really<br>understand your motives.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/zortified/quizzes/Which%20ArchAngel%20are%20you%20most%20like%3F/"> <font size="-1">Which ArchAngel are you most like?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:6318 2003-11-15T01:58:01Z 2003-11-15T01:58:01Z Eleanor Rigby By the beatles this "test" is funny.<div align="center"> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="2"> <tr> <td bgcolor="#eeeeee"> <div align="center"> Personality Disorder Test Results <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="4" bgcolor="#dddddd"> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/1a.gif" border="0"></td> <td>Paranoid</td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">90%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/2a.gif" border="0"></td> <td>Schizoid</td> <td width="50">||||||</td> <td width="30">30%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/3a.gif" width="25" height="9" border="0"></td> <td>Schizotypal</td> <td width="50">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">50%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/4a.gif" width="27" height="25" border="0"></td> <td>Antisocial</td> <td width="50">||||||||||</td> <td width="30">34%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/5a.gif" width="25" height="25" border="0"></td> <td>Borderline</td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">78%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/6a.gif" width="25" height="16" border="0"></td> <td>Histrionic</td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">54%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/7a.gif" width="25" height="25" border="0"></td> <td>Narcissistic</td> <td width="50">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">42%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/8a.gif" width="25" height="9" border="0"></td> <td>Avoidant</td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">82%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/9a.gif" width="25" height="22" border="0"></td> <td>Dependent</td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">62%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><img src="http://sminds.com/icon/10a.gif" width="25" height="12" border="0"></td> <td> Obsessive-Compulsive</td> <td width="50"> ||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">62%</td> </tr> </table> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <a href="http://similarminds.com"> Take Free Personality Disorder Test</a><br> </div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:5897 2003-11-14T07:30:36Z 2003-11-14T07:30:36Z President Dead By Marilyn Manson I have a new journal.Now I have two of them.Go me.<a href="http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/wingless_fairy/">http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/wingless_fairy/</a> if anyone wants to check it out.I went out to eat tonight and the food was really good.Pizza is great!I had some new ideas for some drawings which is cool.For a while there I had no idea as to what to draw at all.but umm yeah. ^_~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:5879 2003-11-11T08:35:20Z 2003-11-11T08:35:20Z Blue Monday By Orgy Jigsaw Puzzle's are so much fun!!!and also a good waste of time.WooHoo tonight I have been working on this really cool one that Glows in the dark.Its all nice and stuff.^_^ Man a lot has been going on lately.some stuff good most bad and all the drama a day time t.v show would have.Buts its all good and I'll deal with all of it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:5542 2003-11-07T04:56:21Z 2003-11-07T04:56:21Z Wait and bleed By Slipknot i feel alone and i think its all my fault.cause i'm not right i do things all wrong nothing i say or do ever comes out right.Or at least it seems to me.So often i find my self lost and freaking out without a clue as to what i should do.there are few people i can talk to but i don't want to be all i am upset and stuff so i think i'll just be silent and listen maybe i'll find my way but if not then DAMN sucks for me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eyes_of_fantasy:5346 2003-11-03T10:40:26Z 2003-11-03T10:40:26Z Play crack the sky by Brand New damn it I can't sleep.these days are strange and life seems as though its nothing but a big question that nobody has the right answer's to.things seem to be taken the wrong way when you say something so whats the point of talking or typing for that matter if no one gets what you are trying to say?you know but they never really will know or see it the same way as you.they get mixed up and the you get stressed because you can't make them see how you see it but maybe thats ok.see that proves my point that life is nothing but a big question when you think you found the answer's but you have just found more question's that never will be all the way understood.